I'm not Dead

I've just been busy, and have been lazy about my posts!

I'm not sure really where to begin since it's been a long time! Things are going well though. We are entering into our slow season here at work and I'm still working on getting certified so that I can reward myself by buying myself an apartment. The Match.com thing is going well, I went out with 4 people, all of whom were very nice, but nothing ever came out of it. I have been emailing with another guy the past few weeks and I think that we are going to try and get together this weekend.

I also went to a wedding with PBF last weekend in northern Michigan. I had never been up there before so it was very nice, even though the drive was SEVEN hours. You can really learn a lot about each other during a seven hour car ride that's for sure!

I have also made a decision to start finding more interesting things to talk about, and also more interesting things to do. I feel like I talk so much about boys, celebrity news, work, and my sister's wedding planning that I'm starting to loose my intellingence. I've also decided that I want to learn more about wine and how to cook.

Lastly, I've decided that this idea of having "rules" in the dating world should be vetoed. Well, except for the courtsey rules. You should always be polite and considerate. However, I've realized that people appreciate and respect you more if you are honest about the way that you feel.

Oooh, and I'm offfically telling every one of you out there (if you are still out there) to check out this new male pop artist that PBF played in his car this past weekend. His name is Mika, and he may be my new boyfriend. I think that he's British too which is even better. I think that I'm also officially obbessed with him.

Well, that's about all I've got for now. I hope that everyone is doing well.

Your Springtime Update

I'm really starting to get lazy about posting, and I'm sorry. I've been busy helping my sister with wedding stuff, I'm tired from work, been studying for this certification test, and just spending mmore time with my friends.

Anyway, I figured that I'd update you on things since it's been a while.

So, the weather here has been great! Hopefully it will stay that way until September. In work news, we haven't gotten our commission checks because the finance people in the UK didn't process them on time. So we are either going to get them at the end of this month or not until June 15th. Which does NOT make me happy. If I had known that was going to happen I wouldn't have gone a bit of a shopping spree 2 weeks ago. Oh well, I really needed those red peep toe pumps. Hehe.

To update you on boys, things are going well in that department. I had my date with that one guy from Match.com and he was really nice and cute. We are going to get together again soon, maybe this week. I also spent some time with PBF this past weekend. We went to this restaurant near where he lives that I really like for brunch, and walked around his neighborhood. Nothing has changed with his feelings about wanting a serious relationship, which both stinks and is okay. He also asked me to go with him to a wedding next month in Michigan. I've only been up there once, but it sounds fun so I agreed.

I guess all I can do is see what happens. It's hard when you have feelings for someone though and you wish that you could just turn them off like a light switch. I don't want to be an annoying girl and analyize the whole thing and cry over it.

Well, that's about all I've got for today. I'll update again soon.

Spring Fever...

Hey everyone, I'm not dead, just been busy and haven't had a chance to post. Or I haven't had anything to post about.

Anyway, spring has somewhat arrived here officially!!! It was gorgeous here over the weekend, and yay to it not getting really cold anymore!!!


So, I guess I can just update you, etc., on things.


I'm starting to realize that planning a wedding is extremely stressful for all parties involved so when I reach that point in my life I think that I'm just going to hire someone to do it all and to keep my parents from having a nervous breakdown. My sister is also a total bridezilla. I really can't wait for the actual day though, it's going to be fantastic.


Work has been quite interesting lately. For some reason people can't understand me on the phone and keep changing, misspelling, or just screwing up my name. Today some guy sent me an email back and addressed me as Karen. Other than that it's going really well.

In boy news, I've decided to sign up for Match.com. I tried Craigs List and went out with this guy this past Thursday and I think that he lied about his height. I'm pretty short, but I had heels on and felt like I was towering over him. Not to mention that there just wasn't a connection. I felt bad because he was really nice, but I just wasn't into him. I've gotten some emails from Match, some from guys who sound very nice, and then there's the men who are over 40. Like um, no. I'm going to be 27 this year, I'm not interested in dating someone over 40 who's divorced. Sorry if that sounds rude, but I'd never date someone more than 10 years older than me. I have a date with this one guy though on Wednesday who is really cute so hopefully that will go well. I know that some people think that Match.com is just filled with weirdos, but seriously, they're wrong! Most of the people on there are regular professionals who don't just want to have the bar be the only way that they meet people.

In other boy news I got together with PBF, and it was really really nice. We walked to the park near where he lives and just sat and talked. It was kind of romantic, and just nice. Totally innocent too, we just kissed!! He told me that he would call me in a few days and asked if maybe we could do something this weekend. It made me totally giddy and happy, and I'm so happy that things went well. We both were a lot more relaxed, and happier. I think the timing before was just bad, and that I'm just going to see what happens, maybe it will evolve into something. I do have feelings for him, but I'm still going to go out with other people.

In other news, so no more Sanjaya!! Crazy. I can't believe how long he stayed on. I haven't decided who my favorite is though. I also haven't watched The Office in ages because I've gone out every Thursday night for the past few weeks. I really can't wait for pay day to come.

Okay, that's about it. I'm tired and I'm ready to go home now.

Early Easter Post

Due to the fact that I'm really bored at work right now, and that I probably won't get to the computer again this weekend so I thought that I'd wish you all a Happy Easter. This is also again a time to be reflective and be thankful for all of the things in our lives that make us lucky! It's also another excuse for me to say something corny! Hahaha.

Horoscope--from Yahoo

Some stuff that's up in the air at work likely demands your attention now -- though leaving something up in the air in your love life may be the result. It could be a good thing, though, to give it some time to develop.

Seriously, are the stars trying to tell me something? Work has been demanding lately, we just started a new quarter and last week was nuts. I also have to generate more server leads, campaign for a new rep, a conference/seminar thing in Seattle, be certified in our software by June, oh and go through a database of like 600 unread leads.

So yes, work needs my attention right now, but apparently the stars think that I should give something some time. So therefore, I'm not calling him!!

Horoscope

I read my horoscope every day because I'm a dork and I always find it interesting. Maybe the 6 today has to do with the weather today since a thunderstorm is starting. I also think that this somehow goes along with my post from yesterday. I like surprises, good ones that is. ;-)


Libra (Sept. 23-Oct. 22). Today is a 6. The situation is not all wrapped up. The only thing that's certain is that there will be surprises. Watch what's going on around you.

Digging up the Past

I've always been someone who says the past is the past, always look foward, never look back. I don't ever like to dwell on the past or hold grudges, and don't like it when other people do that.

However, myself, like many others are gulity of thinking about the past. For me it usually happens when I see things that remind of me of someone or something. Then I think about what could have been, why, or if maybe things would change in the future.

Lately I've been reminded of my last PBF. I feel like such an annoying girl for still even thinking about him, and hate that I do. But I've been seeing so many things that remind me of him, or things that we did together (how lame do I sound right now?!!!) and it's driving me crazy. When Steven and I broke up that happened too, but it was easier to move on because he's not in the same city as me. Sometimes I think that's it. Is it easier to get over someone when they're not living in the same city as you??

It makes me wonder if I should give him a call, but we all know what those phone calls are like. Awkward at first , then you break the ice as your voice gets all nervous, and then start rambling on about how "busy" you've been. I don't really enjoy playing catch up on the phone with people that I've dated, only with old friends. I mean you aren't with that person for a reason and do you really give a crap about what's going on in their life right now?? I think that you do if dated them for a long time, but if it was only a few months, how high is the level of interest in what's going on in their life? Also, is this some sort of weird double standard too?? In the sense do you think that guys ever think about these things?? I'm going to go with no.

So, what is wrong with me and how do I just stop acting like a neurotic girl?? Or finding things that are wrong with me that could've led to him just wanting to be "friends." What is that about too?? I think that guys just say that so they feel less guility, I really don't think that they ever have any intention of calling or seeing you again. I know that sounds bitter, but it's what I think is true. I even wonder that if I had not emailed Steven again if I would've ever heard from him again. One of my friends hates being the first person to contact someone, and I understand that.

Therefore, is it wrong to just give someone a call that you haven't spoken to in a few weeks?? Do you still have to continue to follow the "rules" if you are now just friends?? I don't get it. Maybe someone out there can shed some light on this for me.

Anyway, I have no clue if this post made any sense, but I had to get it off my chest. I hope that everyone had a nice weekend.