Case of the Mondays...

I've got a case of the ol' Mondays. Or maybe its just "the blues." I'm sure that half of the world is feeling how I feel right now too. So at least I don't feel too alone.


Yesterday while I was talking to my Mom, (my parents are in NY) I just totally broke down. I told her that I didn't think that I really liked my job anymore. Or maybe its just on Mondays and Tuesdays I don't like it. I just feel really overwhelmed sometimes, and like I'm not doing a good job. Last week was a bad week, and even though its over, I just can't get over it. I thought about it all weekend, and I hated the fact that I was thinking about it too. I know that I should never take anything personally, but I do. I do because I feel terrible when I can't do anything to help someone, or I've made a mistake thats hard to fix. My Mom told me that there were days when she was great at her job, and times when she wasn't.

I know that no one is perfect, but I'm a perfectionist, so I stress big time when things don't go according to plan. I also don't always a lot of paitence. Some people just irritate crap outta me.

I also miss Steven more than ever, and can't wait until I've got my arms wrapped around him.

I really like the people here, but I hate being in this type of role. But I've only been here two months so I think that I should try and give it more time. My mom thinks that I should talk to my boss about being put into the recruiter role, but I don't think that I've been here long enough to do that. I'm also SO scared because of all of the bad luck that I've had in the past with jobs. I don't know how to get over this fear, and I also wonder if anyone out there really gets how I feel.