Oh My Head

Okay, my head hurts. Hurts like I feel like there are accountants typing in it.

Today I am in a bit of a blue, yet reflective mood. I have no idea what that exactly means. Or the fact that when I came home last night I cried myself to sleep. Maybe that was because of the sappy music that I was listening to.

I don't know. I will just start with last night...

After I met Steven at the L stop we went to the grocery store, and when he went to go pay and I was waiting nearby I hear someone come up to me and say "hey" and it was Kevin, my ex who I haven't spoken to since April. I seriously found myself having difficulties trying to speak.
Steven went to go and pay and only saw Kevin say hello to me and give me a hug. I've never ever run into Kevin any where in this city, and the one time I do I'm with Steven. But hey, at least I looked good! Hehe. Kevin is the guy that I dated while I was still up at school, and we didn't leave off on bad terms, we pretty much stopped talking b/c I realized that he isn't right for me. He could never make me happy the way that Steven does.

Then when I got home I started to cry because I was thinking about the past. I was thinking about how upset I was with Kevin, and how much I hurt I had with Matt. Last night was the first time in a LONG time that I shed a tear for either of them, or even thought about what happened with them.

So that was last night.

I really never ever thought that I'd see Kevin again, and I hope that this doesn't mean that I'm going to run into Matt. At least I know that if I did run into Matt that the chances of him speaking to me are extremely unlikely. Considering how much he hates me.

I think that I officially lost sight of the point here. Sorry. I really don't think that I had one at all, I was just sharing what happened, and how I felt. I have to be careful about what I say though because I have no idea who reads my blog and I don't want to have any drama.

I think that I am going to go and shower now and go out and get some Gatorade. Later I will probably have something more interesting and less blah to say.