I think I get it now...

I seriously think that I am either just a very sappy person, or I am really starting to understand more about life.

I "cleared the air" w/someone who is I guess you could say connected to "Mr X" and she doesn't hate me after all. I understand that she's going to stay loyal to her friend, but its nice to know that if I wanted to call her up to go out. I think that she might just understand where I'm coming from, and that some relationships are just not workable. She's a really nice girl, and I like her.

Today I saw "Cinderella Man" and it was soo good. So inspiring! Sorry, I know that sounds cheesy, but its true. It made me realize that you have to fight hard for your dreams, and always believe in yourself no matter what happens in life. I also realized that I want a husband like Russell Crowe's character.

I've FINALLY figured out what I want in a relationship!!! And I'm only 24!

I want someone who thinks that I'm fantastic, and brings out the best in me. Someone who thinks that I'm most beautiful woman in the world. I want someone who's crazy about me, and who I am crazy about as well.

I know that some might argue that I had w/Mr. X, but I wasn't crazy about him, and I realized that he never brought out the best in me. He never ONCE told me what I was good at. He always just told me how much he loved me, and how no one will ever love me as much as he would. I never really felt that he really believed in me. I want someone to REALLY believe in me. Believe that I can make my dreams come true by having a successful career and a nice life for a family one day.


I hope that I find that with someone one day....

Until then, I'm off to bed! :-)