Time is Funny...

After my interview this morning I decided to walk a while before catching the bus back home and while listening to my new iPod, I found myself doing some soul-searching.

There is just something about the way this city makes me feel on a sunny day when its not too cold outside. As I walked down streets that I've walked down a million times before, I thought about the past, the present, and the future. At first I started to feel a little bit down because I thought about things in the past that didn't workout, and how I wish that I could change some of the decesions that I made. Then I thought about the present. I got alittle happier, but still felt alittle down because I just wish that Steven and I both had new jobs so that we can do all of things that we talk so much about doing that require having money. Then, last but not least, I thought about the future. I thought about how much happier I will be once I have a new job, a new apartment, a life for myself, and maybe even a life one day with Steven.


I could sit here and start talking about the past and mistakes that I've made jobwise, relationship wise, etc. But I won't. The past is long gone, and all I can do now is continue to look foward and never look back.

Today was the first day of being 25 that I actually felt 25. Like a real adult. I'm not sure what made me feel this way, maybe it was just the heartburn I was feeling. Or maybe it was just the moment that I had when I looked up at the sky admist all of the buildings here. That one moment where without getting choked up for once I said to myself, things are going to be okay....things are going to workout, and I am going to be okay...


So that was today. And as I look back now out towards the sky seeing the sunset, I remind myself again that things are going to be okay....